Sorting the Mind and Fueling the Body

After being “out of routine” couple of weekends, with lots of love, close communications and reflections, I return to my quiet life here in the pines at the college, sans students. In this duality, this contrast, now that my days are quiet, it is moments like this that I struggle to see my purpose, it is easy to slip into what seems to be "meaningless". Understanding this, is my only salve.

It did not surprise me, that after coming home from work, on the first Monday back, that I fell into that old familiar; emotional eating urge. Seeking to fill that perception of "emptiness". My kitchen is completely raw, I made sure of that from the very beginning just for moments like this.

Sooo…instead of my customary salad for dinner, I finished off the coconut butter, finished of the raw trail mix left over from vacationing, ate half of an avocado with agave syrup on it, devoured a pint of strawberries, and then a healthy serving of celery sticks and almond butter. Finally I was full. Not numb, but full. I was not in a glycemic trance, as what would have happened in the past. I could actually work out what it was that I was trying to numb myself from, and came to peace with it.

The next day, I allowed my body to rest;
Breakfast was super shake
10am carrots
Lunch fresh green juice and a shot of wheat grass
5pm apple
Dinner was a tall glass of orange juice

But…..

The next morning was my YMCA day. I usually beat my alarm which goes off at 4:30 on this mornings, if I don’t. This time I turned it off trying to talk myself into sleeping in until 6:30, laying there conflicted until 5:00 I pushed myself out of bed, and rushed my morning routine to get down to the Y for a full routine before work. Though I had my sprouted bean protein supplement that morning, the work out was a push for me to get through.

Raw Note:

Emotional Eating: this is the issue I absolutely knew would come up. I also see that I am rapidly increasing my awareness of what I am doing, and the clarity to sort through it. I am sure this will not be the last time, but I strongly suspect the urgency will dissipate as I continue to unravel the knots in my sentient self.

Fueling the body: The night before my next work out, I will experiment with more fuel for my body from homemade almond milk, coconut butter, protein supplement, sprouted wheat.....